End of another year and its introspection time for everyone..Personally i never believed in doing so .You do things right and then you screw up a lot ...dats wut u r ought to do right..
2008 was an year of good byes to me, a whole lot of people leaving and dat makes me always sad..Altogether it was a crappy year. if u ask me wut I wish for in the new year,I say I would like people to not believe in their stars but in their own spirit to make life bright ! Have a not-so-crappy year ahead n may PEACE be with ya all :)
All the world seems at ease tonight
And all that I ask when these precious moments pass
Is why can't every day be so bright
I wish every day could be like NewYear's eve!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Juno
Past weekend was a lousy one..despite the beautiful Bangalore weather and the festive moods, I have turned into a couch potato..but Hey! I m not complaining..seeing movies after movies , exploring the emo music scene ( getting somber eventually) , some heavy duty downloading and devouring plum Xmas cakes..What a nice way to wind up a rather grim year :) :)
JUNO..that's the movie I loved the most out of the few I saw last weekend..Well, finally I saw Lawrence of Arabia too...but this blog is for JUNO and the songs of the movie..
Its a comedy drama , won the Academy award for the best original screenplay in 2007 . Its like no American comedy ever made, atleast not the ones I saw hitherto.. considering the plethora of crap I force mself to see ( :P), hence giving it a fresh youthful feel probably because of the teen protagonist and the plot .. The thread of the movie is about a teenager, Juno,name as in the Greek goddess , who has to confront an unplanned pregnancy thereby forced to deal with things beyond her maturity level as the character itself claims in one of the scenes. Shes every bit the global teenager..cool, intelligent , witty with an interest in punk rock and horror movies.She gets pregnant by her friend Paulie Bleeker and decides to go ahead with delivering the baby and putting the baby for adoption after contemplating abortion.What follows is a chain of events where she is to handle the pressure of pregnancy , the complications of adoption , her feelings for Bleeker etc.In the final part of the movie, she admits to Bleeker that she is in love with him and before the final credit rolls they are shown jamming in front of Bleeker's house followed by a kiss..
The dialogues of the movie are hilariously funny , without being funny on your face , but more like Oh! I was caught unaware on camera when I said this kinda style. As an Indian audience I was also surprised by the ease by which they managed such a sensitive topic which would have raised quite a few eyebrows in here, there where no yelling/screaming/judgment of any sort in the whole movie even in the scene where the girl explains the situation to her parents.This might have been a conscious take by the makers where they did not want it to be a preaching kinda movie but about how a cool intelligent girl handles the situation.Any Indian director would have thrown in quite a few scenes of melodrama making people cringe in their seats.But yeah..the oh so cultural differences .... Who am I to complain!!
The music of Juno is a cherry on top of a delightful cheese cake, cheese cake being the movie ofcourse..( Dun know what it is with me giving unwanted emphasis on the cake here...maybe bcus of the whole Xmas season :D ). The album features several songs performed by Kimya Dawson and her bands Antsy Pants and The Moldy Peaches . Out of all the cute songs my favorite is All I want is U by Barry Louis Polisar . This is the official track of the movie and it is played during the opening credits of the movie while an animated Juno walk thru the streets ..
You can get the lyrics of All I want is U here... and the song can be downloaded frm here ...
I recommend the movie to all drama lovers ;) ...Happy Xmas !
JUNO..that's the movie I loved the most out of the few I saw last weekend..Well, finally I saw Lawrence of Arabia too...but this blog is for JUNO and the songs of the movie..
Its a comedy drama , won the Academy award for the best original screenplay in 2007 . Its like no American comedy ever made, atleast not the ones I saw hitherto.. considering the plethora of crap I force mself to see ( :P), hence giving it a fresh youthful feel probably because of the teen protagonist and the plot .. The thread of the movie is about a teenager, Juno,name as in the Greek goddess , who has to confront an unplanned pregnancy thereby forced to deal with things beyond her maturity level as the character itself claims in one of the scenes. Shes every bit the global teenager..cool, intelligent , witty with an interest in punk rock and horror movies.She gets pregnant by her friend Paulie Bleeker and decides to go ahead with delivering the baby and putting the baby for adoption after contemplating abortion.What follows is a chain of events where she is to handle the pressure of pregnancy , the complications of adoption , her feelings for Bleeker etc.In the final part of the movie, she admits to Bleeker that she is in love with him and before the final credit rolls they are shown jamming in front of Bleeker's house followed by a kiss..
The dialogues of the movie are hilariously funny , without being funny on your face , but more like Oh! I was caught unaware on camera when I said this kinda style. As an Indian audience I was also surprised by the ease by which they managed such a sensitive topic which would have raised quite a few eyebrows in here, there where no yelling/screaming/judgment of any sort in the whole movie even in the scene where the girl explains the situation to her parents.This might have been a conscious take by the makers where they did not want it to be a preaching kinda movie but about how a cool intelligent girl handles the situation.Any Indian director would have thrown in quite a few scenes of melodrama making people cringe in their seats.But yeah..the oh so cultural differences .... Who am I to complain!!
The music of Juno is a cherry on top of a delightful cheese cake, cheese cake being the movie ofcourse..( Dun know what it is with me giving unwanted emphasis on the cake here...maybe bcus of the whole Xmas season :D ). The album features several songs performed by Kimya Dawson and her bands Antsy Pants and The Moldy Peaches . Out of all the cute songs my favorite is All I want is U by Barry Louis Polisar . This is the official track of the movie and it is played during the opening credits of the movie while an animated Juno walk thru the streets ..
You can get the lyrics of All I want is U here... and the song can be downloaded frm here ...
I recommend the movie to all drama lovers ;) ...Happy Xmas !
Monday, November 24, 2008
A Trip to the Mountains
Last weekend was spend in pure bliss. A much delayed trip with few folks from office finally materialized !The fact that we made it to the trip was an achievement in itself since i hold the record of planning the max number of trips and never ever making it to even one. So finally to everyones delight we set to kemmanagundi, the land of red soil and vast stretches of greenery.
It was a two day trip. we reached kemmanagundi by Saturday afternoon. After a quick lunch we kept our baggages in the modest gov cottage and were all set for the afternoon activity .Task was to cover a treachery terrain to reach what they call the Z point, the plan was to reach there intime to catch the sun setting.Albeit the guide's assurance , the terrain was not at all a walk in the park. Springs , waterfalls , exotic flowers and a narrow path ..with high mountains on one side and deep forested valley on the other side gave us company all along. By the time we reached on top the sun was gone and we could only make out eachothers face in the twilight . Relying on torch light and the guide we started downhill .It made even the most enthus a tad nervous .Zillions of stars and a perfect full moon led us back to the cottage for some steaming coffee and pakodas. Later they drove us to the forest where the campfire was set and a tent to sleep in .Games and fun around the fire followed and when the darkness grew and the moon played hide and seek we had our dinner and retreated to the tent . News that four beers were set loose in the forest by the authorities dint stand in our ( two share a tent ) way of having a sound sleep .
Second day of the trip !! woke up by 5 in the morning and we were driven back to the gov cottage. post a quick shower and a good breakfast , we were briefed about the days activity . Unlike previous day it was downhill climb of about 12 kms through coffee plantations to reach Hebbe falls.We had to take a jeep halfway and rest of the climb by foot. By the time the roller coaster jeep ride thru red soiled path ended we were all painted red from top to bottom and all ecstatic to start the climb down . The trees , sounds of birds everything were so breath taking it was as if time stood still there. Crossing three streams on the way , we finally reached the water fall. After spending some time there playing in the ice cold water , we started back and by the time we took the jeep back, it started drizzling slightly exposing us to teeth chattering cold breezes and the damp clothes were not helping either.
By afternoon we had our lunch and bid adieu to kemmanagundi, the place i spend two wonderful most adventurous time of my life. Will stay in m memory for a long long time :)
It was a two day trip. we reached kemmanagundi by Saturday afternoon. After a quick lunch we kept our baggages in the modest gov cottage and were all set for the afternoon activity .Task was to cover a treachery terrain to reach what they call the Z point, the plan was to reach there intime to catch the sun setting.Albeit the guide's assurance , the terrain was not at all a walk in the park. Springs , waterfalls , exotic flowers and a narrow path ..with high mountains on one side and deep forested valley on the other side gave us company all along. By the time we reached on top the sun was gone and we could only make out eachothers face in the twilight . Relying on torch light and the guide we started downhill .It made even the most enthus a tad nervous .Zillions of stars and a perfect full moon led us back to the cottage for some steaming coffee and pakodas. Later they drove us to the forest where the campfire was set and a tent to sleep in .Games and fun around the fire followed and when the darkness grew and the moon played hide and seek we had our dinner and retreated to the tent . News that four beers were set loose in the forest by the authorities dint stand in our ( two share a tent ) way of having a sound sleep .
Second day of the trip !! woke up by 5 in the morning and we were driven back to the gov cottage. post a quick shower and a good breakfast , we were briefed about the days activity . Unlike previous day it was downhill climb of about 12 kms through coffee plantations to reach Hebbe falls.We had to take a jeep halfway and rest of the climb by foot. By the time the roller coaster jeep ride thru red soiled path ended we were all painted red from top to bottom and all ecstatic to start the climb down . The trees , sounds of birds everything were so breath taking it was as if time stood still there. Crossing three streams on the way , we finally reached the water fall. After spending some time there playing in the ice cold water , we started back and by the time we took the jeep back, it started drizzling slightly exposing us to teeth chattering cold breezes and the damp clothes were not helping either.
By afternoon we had our lunch and bid adieu to kemmanagundi, the place i spend two wonderful most adventurous time of my life. Will stay in m memory for a long long time :)
Friday, November 14, 2008
Orange sky by Alexi Murdoch
This is about one of my favorite songs..
I heard thins song quite accidentally.....a delightful accident i wud say... lost the count of times i heard this song once i got hold of it... never heard of the singer before, never heard any of his songs, but what a heavenly song it is,atleast to me.
Orange sky, sung and written by Alexi Murdoch and song is from his first album Time Without Consequence released in June 2006.its a soft song in the rock/folk-rock genre , played with acoustic guitar coupled with Murdoch's gentle soothing voice.This song was featured in o.c , prison break etc..one of his other song "home " is also featured in prison break series .what drew me is the profound sadness in the song .. every time i hear it all i can picture is a scenic countryside with sloppy green hills ,a grandfather tree with an abandoned swing under an orange sky..
just thot i will share it with ya people..
heres how the lyrics of the song goes :
Listen to it and lemme know if u liked it :)
I heard thins song quite accidentally.....a delightful accident i wud say... lost the count of times i heard this song once i got hold of it... never heard of the singer before, never heard any of his songs, but what a heavenly song it is,atleast to me.
Orange sky, sung and written by Alexi Murdoch and song is from his first album Time Without Consequence released in June 2006.its a soft song in the rock/folk-rock genre , played with acoustic guitar coupled with Murdoch's gentle soothing voice.This song was featured in o.c , prison break etc..one of his other song "home " is also featured in prison break series .what drew me is the profound sadness in the song .. every time i hear it all i can picture is a scenic countryside with sloppy green hills ,a grandfather tree with an abandoned swing under an orange sky..
just thot i will share it with ya people..
heres how the lyrics of the song goes :
Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother standing by
With my brother standing by
I said Brother, you know you know
It’s a long road we’ve been walking on
Brother you know it is you know it is
Such a long road we’ve been walking on
And I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my sister standing by
With my sister standing by
I said Sister, here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love
But sister you know I’m so weary
And you know sister
My hearts been broken
Sometimes, sometimes
My mind is too strong to carry on
Too strong to carry on
When I am alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I’ve lost all care for the things I own
That’s when I miss you, that’s when I miss you, that’s when I miss you
You who are my home
You who are my home
And here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love
Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother and my sister standing by
With my brother and my sister standing by
With my brother and my sister standing by
Listen to it and lemme know if u liked it :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Americans , Indians and Math
Came across a post in the NYtimes .... It was about how weak Americans are in math ..basic or advanced, compared to their Indian counterparts . The article points out the flaws in American school system and how skools reserve advanced maths for the brighter students letting the average to cope with the world with basic skills.surveys shows Asians students are 3 years ahead of American students of the same age in math .
Out of the responses to the post, some blame cultural differences to be the problem , some blame the education system , lack of parental supervision etetera. According to some the problem lies in the attitude where mathematical proficiency is not respected and valued and how a person proficient in math is considered nerdy or how the importance is given to sports and athletics and not academics. One even commenting kids in skool are discouraged from taking up interest in math beyond their syllabus and how they are still taught basic arithmetic in higher grades.One of the interesting take on the issue was that Indian females are 50% illterate and hence the american kids cannot be compared to some upper caste Indians who had the liberty of educating themselves and also India is a failed state on basic necessities due to volience.The answer to this comment was ofcourse from an Indian asking to check the number of Indians accepted in american universities and how many of them are upper castes!!!
Anyway voices are being raised , thoughts are being put together by intellectuals , reseachers and commom man to fight the math stigma ..to save american kids from failing in the real world and one of them is a website "Indian math online" to help students learn the mathematics techniques the Indian way!!!
Out of the responses to the post, some blame cultural differences to be the problem , some blame the education system , lack of parental supervision etetera. According to some the problem lies in the attitude where mathematical proficiency is not respected and valued and how a person proficient in math is considered nerdy or how the importance is given to sports and athletics and not academics. One even commenting kids in skool are discouraged from taking up interest in math beyond their syllabus and how they are still taught basic arithmetic in higher grades.One of the interesting take on the issue was that Indian females are 50% illterate and hence the american kids cannot be compared to some upper caste Indians who had the liberty of educating themselves and also India is a failed state on basic necessities due to volience.The answer to this comment was ofcourse from an Indian asking to check the number of Indians accepted in american universities and how many of them are upper castes!!!
Anyway voices are being raised , thoughts are being put together by intellectuals , reseachers and commom man to fight the math stigma ..to save american kids from failing in the real world and one of them is a website "Indian math online" to help students learn the mathematics techniques the Indian way!!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I Miss.....
I miss the three ,the carom board ,the fights...
I miss the shouts and the pandemonium...
I miss the power cuts , the big fat orange candle and the fireflies..
I miss the bruises and cuts the summer leaves behind..
I miss the silent melancholy evenings and the drooping dahlias.
I miss the hot coffees , French toasts and the chitchats..
I miss the matinée at the local theater...
I miss the lazy sunday afternoons..
I miss the special masala chappatis..
I miss the black Hero Impact and the wind in my hair..
I miss the girlie-giggles ..
I miss sharing the blanket with u..
I miss fighting to be on the right side of the bed..
I miss the silliness of things..
I miss the comfort and the nonchalance...
I miss growing up with the A's and Mr.R..
I miss my childhood....
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
In my work shoes..
Calvin : Some days even my lucky rocketship underpants won't help ( Calvin can read my mind :D)
You can pretty much fix anything that goes wrong in a team except people .makes me wish if ever i got robots to work with instead of humans....apparently u get to work with real people and heres the bunch that keeps me on the toes all day ...
The curious type ... a hundred questions comes out from his mouth on any given second ...this includes the most obvious of things , stuffs already explained to him ..feels like freeing him from all the burden bestowed up on him and telling him ..Dude!! don't bother..I will do it myself .basically he is the curious plus spoonfeed me type..
another of them is the I can do anything to please you type... he single handedly appreciates m TL's stupid jokes in Hindi , and you might be wondering what is so weird about that..well..His proficiency in the language is quite minimalistic .. weirdo!!.. He is dexterous in combining politics with work too.
There is the third kind , says yes to anything that comes their way , picks up everything explained to them in the first go , never ever does a negative syllable escapes from them , nevertheless at the end of the day they will be right there where they started off in the morning . Their problem : lack of courage to speak up.
The fourth kind is the one who does his job as if he is doing a favor . constant expression on his face is why is this b***h making me do all these, why cant she do it herself?? Kiddo.. u r not running m errands!!!
But ask me which among all these is the pain in the neck guy...he is the smartypants . He acts/talks/walks like he is the smartest person that has walked into the planet after Einstein or he is the treasure the recruitment team dug out..his intimidating animated speeches ,i do not care a tiny rats a** attitude are so petrifying it makes me(us) want to kick his bladder out..AHH!! dream on guys...tera number bhi aayega!!!
Last but not the least is the captain of the deck .Mr.TL .there exist two set of rules in m team. One for him other for the rest .He is so loud, he gives any loudspeaker a run for their money and if you do not abide by his rules, free lectures are guaranteed . and you mite be interested to know his rules.. long leaves even when all hell is breaking loose , phone switched off when on leave n weekends when we are screwing ourselves, comes to office at half past 10 and leaves when the clock strikes 6 ..and rules for us are free lectures for leave request , phone in anytime of the day even while on sick leaves , free lectures for leaving early or coming late , free lectures for pretty much anything ..makes you wonder whether he is fulfilling his unrealized dream to excel in the preaching sector..despite all this he is a decent TL. I give him credit for that :D
Whoever said everyday is a battle sure meant it...
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Everyday Heroes!!
A conversation that happened between me and an auto driver ..goes like this...
Scene 1 : I stop an auto
driver : where to?
me : Forum ( my place to forum doesnot cost more than 18 rs on any meter )
driver : ok ..get in
Scene 2 : I hop in to the auto
driver :How much will u pay me?
me: meter charge
driver : thats fine. how much is minimum meter charge though?
me: 14 rs
driver nodes his head in disagreement
me : then how much is it?
driver : 35 rs..
me: what? ( surprised look on m face )
driver : u need to pay only meter charge , but minimum charge is 35 rs.. ( he sits with a sad expression on his face )
Scene 3 : I mount down his chariot ...gets another auto ...
One smart auto driver ( or dumb) huh....he needs only minimum meter charge and that being 35 is ofcourse not his fault right B-)
Scene 1 : I stop an auto
driver : where to?
me : Forum ( my place to forum doesnot cost more than 18 rs on any meter )
driver : ok ..get in
Scene 2 : I hop in to the auto
driver :How much will u pay me?
me: meter charge
driver : thats fine. how much is minimum meter charge though?
me: 14 rs
driver nodes his head in disagreement
me : then how much is it?
driver : 35 rs..
me: what? ( surprised look on m face )
driver : u need to pay only meter charge , but minimum charge is 35 rs.. ( he sits with a sad expression on his face )
Scene 3 : I mount down his chariot ...gets another auto ...
One smart auto driver ( or dumb) huh....he needs only minimum meter charge and that being 35 is ofcourse not his fault right B-)
Friday, August 29, 2008
Prison Break
Lately i have been catching up on the prison break series.Its currently running in StarWorld in India but do not know which season it is playing right now.Anyways I could get my hands on the DVD.. season 1 -3,thanks to one of m friend. Now that i am so hooked to it, i do not have time for anything else.my routine has become like this : I get home from office and within half an hour i am infront of m laptop , somehow very reluctantly manages to get to bed by midnight and weekends completely dedicated to the same .My ears and eyes are taking a toll on dis routine though, but thats how much so i am hooked to it..and no resting till i finish all seasons..hehehe.
So talking about Prison break, for those who do not know the storyline ..it is about two brothers and how the younger brother Micheal (played by WentWorth Miller)gets in to prison so that he can save his elder brother Linc ( played by Dominic Purcell ) from the death sentence he is facing. Wat i liked about the series is its not at all dragging, the meticulous details that has gone in to Miller's character is amazing,how it manages to keep you on the edge of the seats on every episode ,the characters seems almost real not fully though but.. yeah.. pretty appreciable work except this timing of how everyone has a good enough reason to break out at the same time..everything looks fine.Linc being the brute and Micheal being the brains theres scope for both action and some brainy stuff. And they managed to squeeze in a romantic track too .. The fun season starts after their escape from prison although how they get lucky eachtime is pretty indigestible..but since i do not want to get them caught..dats fine with me :D
Two people I enjoy most on the series is Micheal and Agent Mahone . Both are very shrewd , prudent , intense people. I have become a die hard fan of WentWorth, the guy has such powerful eyes, and its rarely that a smile crosses his face and I go wild when that happens.:P .Willaim Fichtner , the guy who plays Mahone is a better version of Clint Eastwood , hes probably in his 40's .Both are a pleasure to watch on screen and i just ogle at these two.. :P
All the whole, prison break shouldnt be missed if u have the stomach for a powerpacked(violent)series..
Ciao ..
\m/
So talking about Prison break, for those who do not know the storyline ..it is about two brothers and how the younger brother Micheal (played by WentWorth Miller)gets in to prison so that he can save his elder brother Linc ( played by Dominic Purcell ) from the death sentence he is facing. Wat i liked about the series is its not at all dragging, the meticulous details that has gone in to Miller's character is amazing,how it manages to keep you on the edge of the seats on every episode ,the characters seems almost real not fully though but.. yeah.. pretty appreciable work except this timing of how everyone has a good enough reason to break out at the same time..everything looks fine.Linc being the brute and Micheal being the brains theres scope for both action and some brainy stuff. And they managed to squeeze in a romantic track too .. The fun season starts after their escape from prison although how they get lucky eachtime is pretty indigestible..but since i do not want to get them caught..dats fine with me :D
Two people I enjoy most on the series is Micheal and Agent Mahone . Both are very shrewd , prudent , intense people. I have become a die hard fan of WentWorth, the guy has such powerful eyes, and its rarely that a smile crosses his face and I go wild when that happens.:P .Willaim Fichtner , the guy who plays Mahone is a better version of Clint Eastwood , hes probably in his 40's .Both are a pleasure to watch on screen and i just ogle at these two.. :P
All the whole, prison break shouldnt be missed if u have the stomach for a powerpacked(violent)series..
Ciao ..
\m/
I.Refuse.To.Grow.Up
I refuse to grow up...
I have reached a certain age of m life...a certain age where jantha around (read family, friends, neighbors ...all those who know me in some way )expect an whole together different set of things from me, where I am expected to act like a grown up (wut ever that is )they prefer to see me settled (read get married n raise kids )...add to the mayhem basically...you will be provided with reasons too..they say this is the time.. but wut eludes me is how do they know this is the time or right time or more specifically whether it is the right time for me??That it is neither one year later nor was it one year before..but NOW… How come they know what is right for me, what works for me or just because I reached a certain age I should be doing certain things, despite the fact that whether I want to do those … I find it difficult to comprehend jantha’ point.
Giving it a thot…almost all from my age group are married…some have kids, one of them even has twins...but I never got tempted/inspired/lets give it a try thot..nope.nothing .never. I remember reading somewhere man is born free but everywhere in chains, and most of the chains are self imposed,, courtesy of marriage, the only difference is whether you end up liking the chain or not..But a chain nevertheless.. and kids..ofcourse kids are on the cards,,but am I ready..well, the answer is NO..And all they say is its time …
So what should I be doing now, do not lend my ear to the experienced jantha and do it when I feel the time is right? Or...… Sigh…Anyways as far as jantha refuses to fathom my point, I do not have much of a choice rite... Emotional blackmailing is what I detest and I know for sure one day I will succumb to the same whether I like it or not... jeez….who’s in charge of my life????
Anyways letting u jantha know once gain…I refuse to grow up!!!
I have reached a certain age of m life...a certain age where jantha around (read family, friends, neighbors ...all those who know me in some way )expect an whole together different set of things from me, where I am expected to act like a grown up (wut ever that is )they prefer to see me settled (read get married n raise kids )...add to the mayhem basically...you will be provided with reasons too..they say this is the time.. but wut eludes me is how do they know this is the time or right time or more specifically whether it is the right time for me??That it is neither one year later nor was it one year before..but NOW… How come they know what is right for me, what works for me or just because I reached a certain age I should be doing certain things, despite the fact that whether I want to do those … I find it difficult to comprehend jantha’ point.
Giving it a thot…almost all from my age group are married…some have kids, one of them even has twins...but I never got tempted/inspired/lets give it a try thot..nope.nothing .never. I remember reading somewhere man is born free but everywhere in chains, and most of the chains are self imposed,, courtesy of marriage, the only difference is whether you end up liking the chain or not..But a chain nevertheless.. and kids..ofcourse kids are on the cards,,but am I ready..well, the answer is NO..And all they say is its time …
So what should I be doing now, do not lend my ear to the experienced jantha and do it when I feel the time is right? Or...… Sigh…Anyways as far as jantha refuses to fathom my point, I do not have much of a choice rite... Emotional blackmailing is what I detest and I know for sure one day I will succumb to the same whether I like it or not... jeez….who’s in charge of my life????
Anyways letting u jantha know once gain…I refuse to grow up!!!
R.I.P frend...
One of my ex team member met with an accident some days back.Following day we got the dreadful news that he passed away.what followed was a ghastly chain of events which set me thinking..About the boy, lemme call him vj..since thats what he called himself, was a tall lean fellow with a good temperament. we were good Friends, being a late joinee to the team, he treated everyone with respect, and worked hard to prove his metal . we shared adjacent cabins in office, pulled each others leg in every opportunityt. Sitting 10 meters away ,e-fighting as we always used messenger facility to the max on a free day at ofc . I only hav fond memories of him just like everyone else.
Occasionally i think about him, still have not digested the fact that hes not sharing world space with me anymore. On the day i got the terrible news i kept checking the messenger , praying the news be wrong hoping i get the pop up saying vj has singed in...but whole day whole week his profile said away den some days later it said offline. for the messenger thats wut he is now..hes just offline..
In office though there was no official mails about the mishap , nothing from corporate service/human resources whatsoever.Mabbe its because stuff like this doesnot add any value to the company , doesnot delight the stake holders in any way,so why waste corporate bandwidth rite. The only thing the company did as far as i know is they deleted vj's profile in no time. it was like he never existed. made him a ghost in one day..for the company he worked thats wut he is now... a profile that is flagged deleted or something in the database..
One of our teammate showed the courtesy of sending an unofficial mail to everyone who have known him.What followed was a chain mail about how well a person he was and how good he was at his work..i felt sick reading all that ..did not reply to the mail.. dint not let any of those contaminate my thoughts of him, to me he will be just vj.and i do not pretty much care how well he knew java or anything for that matter...among all the mails send around mourning over his death, there were two which stood out. One from his current team lead ..sharing to his team mates how good he was at his work, and best part:the mail was send to vj too...i sincerely hope vj cannot check mails where ever he is now.Another one was from the person who selected vj to the team, it was about his take on how vj dint get thru the interview but still how he believed in vj's talent.I felt something turn upside down in my stomach after reading that.
I am not sure whether i should be saying this,,but i pretty much have an idea of how will things be tomorrow if i die today ..
VJ..where ever u r...May ur Soul Rest In Peace!!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Happy BDay To Me :P
dats m Bday cake :) was a surprise from m roommates at sharp 12 on m birthday ..sweet na :D
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
The Unfathomable Cycle of Life
I turned a year older the other day; the day went well. Even amidst all the warm wishes and laughter something disturbing kept coming up, something inside was roaring high for my attention. Following day on my way to office, my mind took the liberty of questioning itself, more like a feedback form they pass around after a boring presentation .It raised half a dozen not so pleasant questions which on any other day I would have readily avoided but this time it was different it was the brand new day of my brand new year. Was I happy to be alive, what would be the one thing I would be doing if it were m last day? Does my work excite me enough to make me look forward to hitting office the next day?? Pretty heavy stuff on an innocent morning to confront huh??Well there was no escaping this time..
I should be the hip and happening software professional drawing fat salary end of month working in air-conditioned rooms all day, partying hard n hanging out with fellow “cool’’ software professionals on weekends to fit the picture of a modern day working woman. Real picture: I was feeling pretty miserable myself. I was not doing the things I want to do anymore, the "ever exploring new horizons me" have long gone lost somewhere in the woods, not seeing the places I wanted to see, around people I do not care a darn about, I go to the flashy spaceship lookalike office, doing the work any average person can do, having all my meals from the office cafeteria with the same people, cracking the same silly disgusting jokes .How I was starting to loathe all this and felt exasperated inside!!! In short there’s no life in my life anymore. I tried to find out my buddies take on this. And boy!! was I surprised, the stories are pretty much the same.. days are spend writing shitty code, drinking filthy coffee reading forwards that have circulated around the world in record time, and nights dedicated to making the mobile network company rich!!
Having got a big picture of the miserable life around , I still was not sure whether to feel sympathy towards myself for the clone I became or rather feel happy for all that I have...I mean at least I am not lagging behind anything rite. I have enough money to spend on a book or a DVD, have friends to call when I need a good laugh.. who shows empathy towards me.. to constantly assure me that everything’s going to be alrite, folks who worries about me when a silly bomb goes boom. I am lucky for sure but maybe the lession I have to learn is you cannot have all the things in the world. As they always say to appreciate what u have keep an outsiders perspective handy...there are people who take a lifetime dream vacation to the Maldives or to the Bahamas and never come back home because tsunami or a hurricane with a silly name hit them , there are people who give the performance of a life time and before the reviews are out , before basking in the glory, they will be in an altogether different world where these things have no meaning...there are worst things that can happen and you are spared for at least this day, this minute. I still can afford to contemplate whether to catch up Mama Mia at the nearby multiplex, or a weekend getaway with friends to a serene place . So at the end of the day you still have to fight your demons but that should not stop us from enjoying a steaming cup of tea on a roadside shack, rain pouring outside. For now on, I am juss gonna enjoy myself!!!
I should be the hip and happening software professional drawing fat salary end of month working in air-conditioned rooms all day, partying hard n hanging out with fellow “cool’’ software professionals on weekends to fit the picture of a modern day working woman. Real picture: I was feeling pretty miserable myself. I was not doing the things I want to do anymore, the "ever exploring new horizons me" have long gone lost somewhere in the woods, not seeing the places I wanted to see, around people I do not care a darn about, I go to the flashy spaceship lookalike office, doing the work any average person can do, having all my meals from the office cafeteria with the same people, cracking the same silly disgusting jokes .How I was starting to loathe all this and felt exasperated inside!!! In short there’s no life in my life anymore. I tried to find out my buddies take on this. And boy!! was I surprised, the stories are pretty much the same.. days are spend writing shitty code, drinking filthy coffee reading forwards that have circulated around the world in record time, and nights dedicated to making the mobile network company rich!!
Having got a big picture of the miserable life around , I still was not sure whether to feel sympathy towards myself for the clone I became or rather feel happy for all that I have...I mean at least I am not lagging behind anything rite. I have enough money to spend on a book or a DVD, have friends to call when I need a good laugh.. who shows empathy towards me.. to constantly assure me that everything’s going to be alrite, folks who worries about me when a silly bomb goes boom. I am lucky for sure but maybe the lession I have to learn is you cannot have all the things in the world. As they always say to appreciate what u have keep an outsiders perspective handy...there are people who take a lifetime dream vacation to the Maldives or to the Bahamas and never come back home because tsunami or a hurricane with a silly name hit them , there are people who give the performance of a life time and before the reviews are out , before basking in the glory, they will be in an altogether different world where these things have no meaning...there are worst things that can happen and you are spared for at least this day, this minute. I still can afford to contemplate whether to catch up Mama Mia at the nearby multiplex, or a weekend getaway with friends to a serene place . So at the end of the day you still have to fight your demons but that should not stop us from enjoying a steaming cup of tea on a roadside shack, rain pouring outside. For now on, I am juss gonna enjoy myself!!!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
